Hey people,
I've moved to livejournal.com.
http://mynameismervin.livejournal.com/
Find me there yeah? =D
Cya.
I'm gonna break down these walls I built around myself.
Mervin is : Tired/surprised/contented.
Hello you,
Hmm.. today was a surprising day. Everything turned out the opposite of what I thought it would be. I 'kinda' enjoyed myself today. It wasn't so bad.. NOT.
Eyah... Its already over 'nyways. So why bother talking 'bout today. Just know that, it felt great to see my dearest friends again, as a group, just like the secondary school days.
Damn.. I wanted to take a bath and go to bed. But faggot, just when I was about to step into the bathroom, my dad said he wanted to wash the clothes. I have a washing machine, mind you. Lol. Yeah, so he just switched it on and now I have to wait for the machine to finish washing before I can bathe. zZz... and to think I have work later in like, 8hours time. Lol.
Yeah, so remember 'bout my previous post? The one where I said it was funny when meeting Daphane? Haha, I wanted to 'tell' a 'CERTAIN' friend of mine, but didn't get the chance today. Maybe I'll be able to tell tomorrow, it all depends on that 'CERTAIN' friend of mine. =D
No promises that I'll tell you the next time though, remember! xD
Okay, I'm off staring at at my wall while waiting for my washing machine,
Till then & when,
*Hey there it's good to see you again, it never felt right calling this just friends*
#13ftw.
2:33am.
Hello you,
Hmm.. today was a surprising day. Everything turned out the opposite of what I thought it would be. I 'kinda' enjoyed myself today. It wasn't so bad.. NOT.
Eyah... Its already over 'nyways. So why bother talking 'bout today. Just know that, it felt great to see my dearest friends again, as a group, just like the secondary school days.
Damn.. I wanted to take a bath and go to bed. But faggot, just when I was about to step into the bathroom, my dad said he wanted to wash the clothes. I have a washing machine, mind you. Lol. Yeah, so he just switched it on and now I have to wait for the machine to finish washing before I can bathe. zZz... and to think I have work later in like, 8hours time. Lol.
Yeah, so remember 'bout my previous post? The one where I said it was funny when meeting Daphane? Haha, I wanted to 'tell' a 'CERTAIN' friend of mine, but didn't get the chance today. Maybe I'll be able to tell tomorrow, it all depends on that 'CERTAIN' friend of mine. =D
No promises that I'll tell you the next time though, remember! xD
Okay, I'm off staring at at my wall while waiting for my washing machine,
Till then & when,
*Hey there it's good to see you again, it never felt right calling this just friends*
#13ftw.
2:33am.
I don't wanna...
Mervin is : having a lot in his mind.
Hello you,
Everything sucked today. I feel like fucking killing the world. I'm so filled with hate right now. For the past week actually. I really wish to know why as well, so don't ask me. Everything has just gone into a downward spiral for me. I don't feel like leaving my house for this whole week. Only for work, yes. But outing-wise, I don't think so. I haven't the mood to do so. Even if I do, its all fake smiles and empty laughter. What's the point?
Hmph... tomorrow's Friday. A day I was looking forward to...
On a lighter note, Daphane came to see me today! Lol. Like wtf, I was just walking and I found this b*tch kinda freakin' familiar. Lol. I shan't say the whole story here but just that it is pretty darn funny. =D
Bye kids!
*I guess its just another night alone*
#13ftw.
8:21pm.
Hello you,
Everything sucked today. I feel like fucking killing the world. I'm so filled with hate right now. For the past week actually. I really wish to know why as well, so don't ask me. Everything has just gone into a downward spiral for me. I don't feel like leaving my house for this whole week. Only for work, yes. But outing-wise, I don't think so. I haven't the mood to do so. Even if I do, its all fake smiles and empty laughter. What's the point?
Hmph... tomorrow's Friday. A day I was looking forward to...
On a lighter note, Daphane came to see me today! Lol. Like wtf, I was just walking and I found this b*tch kinda freakin' familiar. Lol. I shan't say the whole story here but just that it is pretty darn funny. =D
Bye kids!
*I guess its just another night alone*
#13ftw.
8:21pm.
..hmph..
Things I'm thinking about right now.
Tomorrow, my life, work, accidents, bed, pillow, cars, health, emo, people, friends, 'you', him, her, me, Friday, off-day.
Bye...
*Wouldn't it be good, if I could leave this world which only knows hate and gossip*
Tomorrow, my life, work, accidents, bed, pillow, cars, health, emo, people, friends, 'you', him, her, me, Friday, off-day.
Bye...
*Wouldn't it be good, if I could leave this world which only knows hate and gossip*
Just like a 2D image living in a 3D world..
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Do you see the life I lead?
Mervin is : RANDOM butterflying turtles BBQ.
Hello you,
I don't really feel like blogging? but at the same time, I feel like. Weird huh?
Look, on one hand, a blog is something where you pour your heart feelings out. But at the same time, you don't wanna reveal too much. So that's where I am now, like I've always said,
'I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.'
Okay, I'll just say something for the sake of it. Hmm.. today was pretty fun at work. It was hectic in the morning. Okay, you guys SHOULD prolly' know by now that my 'main' workplace is @ NovenaSquare right? But on some occasions, I have to attend work @ UnitedSquare. So that's where I was supposed to be at today till' about 1.30pm. So I went there in the morning. I was early, by the way, by about... 20mins? So I realised I was alone there. In an unfamiliar place.
*Smiling is a good cover.
A good cover for the sadness and loneliness
that I feel.
Neatly tucked behind my smile
nobody will realise...*
'Cause, all the while I've been working @ NovenaSquare and I know how to do the shop opening by myself. But I was in UNITEDSQUARE, a place I hardly even go to. To add fuel to the flames, I was alone, I was lost. My colleague was gonna be late. So I called her to tell me how the hell do I set the shop up. MY GOODNESS! I had a FREAKIN' hard time with the keys. The shop floor is much much bigger than NovenaSquare and I had to literally trial&error with the different keys and whatnot. Even counting money there felt so different.
Everyone was staring/glaring at me. Wtf. Kay, anyhoos, I shall stop talking 'bout work, just thinking of it makes me feel tired. I'm gonna be meeting the dude and dudettes this Friday~! w00tz! Can't wait for it. But the sad thing is, I've got work the next damn day, so that means I can't stay up too late. =(
Ugh.. I can say this though, my mood for today was fine I guess. Damn, I sound like a girl don't I? Like I'm having PMS or something. LOL-ism. Haha. Yeah but wtf, Mervin is Random.
&& WTF MAN! My desktop is giving me a fcukload of problems. First, its the internet adaptor. Second, its the random problem of my com restarting/hanging itself. I think my desktop has PMS. Lol.
Now I'm trying really hard to troubleshoot it while blogging. I'm using my laptop by the way. =D
Yeah, I have a laptop, so don't be surprised. Its just that I haven't really told anyone. Only a few. Yeah. So in my blog, I'll refer my laptop as 'lappy'. =)
*Angels and prayers rendered useless
Nothing will be able to take this misery away from me.
Unless 'He' himself were to pay me a visit.
A visit in my dreams.
To rectify my sins, to wash away the shame.*
Hmm.. Its been awhile since I've actually played my bass. Did I make the wrong decision of wanting to learn bass? NAHHH.... It can't be. I'm enjoying it. But at the same time, I'm contemplating. Oh well, I guess that's the norm of being a Sagittarius. I tend to like changes too much. Lol.
*The phoenix will die in a blaze of its own fire.
The ashes will fade
never to return
I am the son,
follow my footsteps*
Okay, enough for today.
Till another day,
*Bite to break skin, don't give the secret*
#13ftw.
11:41pm.
Hello you,
I don't really feel like blogging? but at the same time, I feel like. Weird huh?
Look, on one hand, a blog is something where you pour your heart feelings out. But at the same time, you don't wanna reveal too much. So that's where I am now, like I've always said,
'I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.'
Okay, I'll just say something for the sake of it. Hmm.. today was pretty fun at work. It was hectic in the morning. Okay, you guys SHOULD prolly' know by now that my 'main' workplace is @ NovenaSquare right? But on some occasions, I have to attend work @ UnitedSquare. So that's where I was supposed to be at today till' about 1.30pm. So I went there in the morning. I was early, by the way, by about... 20mins? So I realised I was alone there. In an unfamiliar place.
*Smiling is a good cover.
A good cover for the sadness and loneliness
that I feel.
Neatly tucked behind my smile
nobody will realise...*
'Cause, all the while I've been working @ NovenaSquare and I know how to do the shop opening by myself. But I was in UNITEDSQUARE, a place I hardly even go to. To add fuel to the flames, I was alone, I was lost. My colleague was gonna be late. So I called her to tell me how the hell do I set the shop up. MY GOODNESS! I had a FREAKIN' hard time with the keys. The shop floor is much much bigger than NovenaSquare and I had to literally trial&error with the different keys and whatnot. Even counting money there felt so different.
Everyone was staring/glaring at me. Wtf. Kay, anyhoos, I shall stop talking 'bout work, just thinking of it makes me feel tired. I'm gonna be meeting the dude and dudettes this Friday~! w00tz! Can't wait for it. But the sad thing is, I've got work the next damn day, so that means I can't stay up too late. =(
Ugh.. I can say this though, my mood for today was fine I guess. Damn, I sound like a girl don't I? Like I'm having PMS or something. LOL-ism. Haha. Yeah but wtf, Mervin is Random.
&& WTF MAN! My desktop is giving me a fcukload of problems. First, its the internet adaptor. Second, its the random problem of my com restarting/hanging itself. I think my desktop has PMS. Lol.
Now I'm trying really hard to troubleshoot it while blogging. I'm using my laptop by the way. =D
Yeah, I have a laptop, so don't be surprised. Its just that I haven't really told anyone. Only a few. Yeah. So in my blog, I'll refer my laptop as 'lappy'. =)
*Angels and prayers rendered useless
Nothing will be able to take this misery away from me.
Unless 'He' himself were to pay me a visit.
A visit in my dreams.
To rectify my sins, to wash away the shame.*
Hmm.. Its been awhile since I've actually played my bass. Did I make the wrong decision of wanting to learn bass? NAHHH.... It can't be. I'm enjoying it. But at the same time, I'm contemplating. Oh well, I guess that's the norm of being a Sagittarius. I tend to like changes too much. Lol.
*The phoenix will die in a blaze of its own fire.
The ashes will fade
never to return
I am the son,
follow my footsteps*
Okay, enough for today.
Till another day,
*Bite to break skin, don't give the secret*
#13ftw.
11:41pm.
I'm turning.... emo?
Mervin is : having another one of those days again.
Hello you...
...i dont know what to say.. its just another one of those days again. where i just think too much about something and start jumping to conclusions.. but it makes me feel even more sucky when your thoughts seem to be unfolding before your eyes... dont wanna say much. ill just say that, i was treated really coldly today.. it feels like shit, i swear... first, i think too much, second, everything that i thought of seemed to came real. seemed to take shape.
pardon my tenses and whatnot for this post.. i just dont have the mood to type like how i normally would... today was just plain sucky.. work was okay, i enjoyed it, really. it was only after work. where i went to play pool... i dont wanna blab it all out in my blog, because i know some ass is gonna tell on me and spill the damn fucking beans. and trust me, i know who it is. im just keeping my mouth taped at the moment... dont ever think for one moment that i dont know whats going with you and 'them', okay...
but damn.. its ridiculous.. someone could be so hostile towards me.. could be so... cold towards me. maybe i should delete my blog for good.. and just be like the old days where noone knew a single thing about me.. maybe i should stop hanging around outside.. maybe i should just go straight home everyday after work.. maybe i should do it like the past where i didnt confide anyone at all.. the past was good.. everything was mysterious.. noone knew about all these dark secrets that i would slowly spill out every now and then.. perhaps i should just get knocked down by a car and get into a coma.. so id never have to face or think about all this..
i hate today. really. i feel so emo today. this sucks. i dont care what you guys say or think about this post but its just how i feel. i dont care anymore. i promise.
To hell with everyone.
11:40pm
Hello you...
...i dont know what to say.. its just another one of those days again. where i just think too much about something and start jumping to conclusions.. but it makes me feel even more sucky when your thoughts seem to be unfolding before your eyes... dont wanna say much. ill just say that, i was treated really coldly today.. it feels like shit, i swear... first, i think too much, second, everything that i thought of seemed to came real. seemed to take shape.
pardon my tenses and whatnot for this post.. i just dont have the mood to type like how i normally would... today was just plain sucky.. work was okay, i enjoyed it, really. it was only after work. where i went to play pool... i dont wanna blab it all out in my blog, because i know some ass is gonna tell on me and spill the damn fucking beans. and trust me, i know who it is. im just keeping my mouth taped at the moment... dont ever think for one moment that i dont know whats going with you and 'them', okay...
but damn.. its ridiculous.. someone could be so hostile towards me.. could be so... cold towards me. maybe i should delete my blog for good.. and just be like the old days where noone knew a single thing about me.. maybe i should stop hanging around outside.. maybe i should just go straight home everyday after work.. maybe i should do it like the past where i didnt confide anyone at all.. the past was good.. everything was mysterious.. noone knew about all these dark secrets that i would slowly spill out every now and then.. perhaps i should just get knocked down by a car and get into a coma.. so id never have to face or think about all this..
i hate today. really. i feel so emo today. this sucks. i dont care what you guys say or think about this post but its just how i feel. i dont care anymore. i promise.
To hell with everyone.
11:40pm
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